1. Are you a male or female?

I'm A Bomb

2. How do you feel:

Happy

3. Describe where you currently live:

Backyard

4. If you could go anywhere, where would you go?

Drop Me In The Middle


5. Your favorite form of transportation:

Wild Horses

6. Your best friend is:

Angel

7. What's the weather like?

Pocketful Of Sunshine

8. Favorite time of day:

Who Knows

9. If your life was a TV show, what would it be called?

Silent Movie

10. What is life to you?

We're All Mad

11. Your fear:

Pirate Bones

12. What is the best advice you have to give?

Size Matters

13. Thought for the day:

Say it Again

14. How I would like to die:

 Put Your Arms Around Me

15. My soul's present condition:

Unwritten

16. My motto:

Not Givin' Up

I have a confession to make. I love her song Unwritten, but hadn't heard any of the others...umm; not sure I like them all, but it worked for the quiz and I enjoyed putting this together.

Thanks to Samme whose blog started it all!

I realized some time back that I have no 'taste' or discernment for the way something looks or the label that it has. So that includes spiritual paths, names of teachers,  clothes or knick-knacks, friends or places or homes.

But I have a very finely tuned sense of what brought something into being. So, if the atmosphere of a home is loving, the outer mess does not bother me [I may not even see it!]; if the village woman who crafted a little doll put her heart into her work, it matters more to me than a necklace made of rare pearls [unless that was given to me in love]. I can wear clothes that may not 'suit ' me, if given by someone with love [though this aspect is strangely changing; as I am getting more sensitive to colors and styles that resonate with how I'm feeling].

The main thing though is - that no longer is the messenger important - I look at the message. And through the message, get an idea of the messenger. Since childhood, I was seeking certain information - as if it had been craftily hidden in times past, and now had to be found. At that time, I judged the messenger and the outer aspects, and if they did not match mine - if they were not 'like-minded', I stayed away from them.

It needed major attunements into healing, and meeting more open-hearted friends;  for me to focus on the message and not the messenger. As a saying in India : "Naa jaane kiss vesh mein Narayan mill jayen" [who knows in which guise, God will be found]

 Why was I searching? Thoughts would stream through, visions, ideas, feelings, notions...and I felt that I needed to find words or images where these were recorded. It was not so much about them alone, but about re-establishing connections.

I have found what I sought hidden in esoteric religion, encounters with 'superficial' people [how I would have judged them in the past], a billboard that triggers something, numbers or patterns, a breeze, animals, the look in a stranger's eyes, the gaze of a babe, books old and new, ancient teachings and new age channelings, science, metaphysics, religions, spirituality, geography, history, psychology, health science, school, college, physical activity, driving, showering, meditating, journeying, healing in different dimensions of and beyond space-time, silence and words, traumatic and wondrous events, friends and not friends, sureness and doubt,  mystics, teachers, famous people and unknown people, the outwardly humble and the inwardly humble, leaders and followers, meditation groups and markerting research groups, family, friends and strangers.

When I let go outer discernment, judging people by the appearance or  age, letting go of trying to fulfill their expectations of me, of wanting to be accepted, I was able to find the message that needed to come through for me. I have been aware of bringing to me experiences that are required for me to fulfill the purpose I came to fulfill.

When I let go of expectation from myself, I was able to change perspectives and focus, from right-brain to left-brain to both one brains, looking left, then right, then both ways, being tactful to being honest in love [still working on that!], be consistent, reliable and inconsistent and unreliable, doing and allowing, being a crutch and removing the crutch, showing and moving away, ebbing and flowing, attaching, connecting, disconnecting, reconnecting, detaching. In unconditional love.

Now, I have found the time and place to share this.

And yes - the words!

[Related blogs  How can we know the truth?  
How do you decide that something is true?
How do you now it's true? July 17th or any other event 
Expect no consistency!
Themes in my life - the owl
ulat pulat universe : upside down ]

Some of the places I'm posting around Gaia today:

**Peter's blog on the main page, drew me in with its first line: "His Holiness the 14th Dalai Lama, said that our purpose in life is to be happy." and reminded me when I finally realized the importance of being happy.

**Learned about wolf medicine in the Native American tradition, and posted as a reply  at the Power of Light group

**Saw several friends' status' and placed a comment on their grapevines.

**Shared a quote by J Krishnamurti as a reply  to a thread on Living Metaphysics.

**started a new conversation - Celebrations of India - Rakshabandhan: brothers-sisters in World Heritage Society

**Remembered being on Gaia from the Zaadz days when I  posted a reply to the conversation "Feature: Diving Deeper with Sandra Jensen" in Gaia Networking~Enhance your Community Experience

**A friend's husband informed us that she's injured, so I started a new conversation - Requesting healing for Kala in The Power of Light

**posted a reply to the conversation "Connecting with friends, family and....strangers" in 50+stars: a half century & more on earth

More later...

A wonderful time-lapse video of a young man's yearlong walk from Beijing to Berlin, full of exotic sights, friends, and excessive facial hair. Featured music: The Kingpins - "L'Aventurier," and Zu Fengbo - "Olive Tree."

 

Clearer but smaller screen video here.

I'm seeing it twice - first time, the guy behind the beard; then, the places and people behind him!!

Because the opposite is mistrust.
Because I'd rather someone made a fool of me ..because then I can learn; than that I wronged someone....and made myself a bigger fool and injured the connection.

Because when I'm in trust, I'm open, my energy flows clear, grounded, expanded, centered and ...you know what, then no one can make a fool of me. I see them for what they are; I can see the truth beyond the lies, and the lies beyond the truth...
and know that all is in perfect harmony.

Trust is easy, because it helps me be in awareness.

I'm the one with antennae all over!

I 'worked' with two women who were in deeply abusive situations when I was a fledgling healer. One of the women was a lightworker who was staying with her husband out of compassion, believing that his unloved childhood justified his taking out his frustrations on her. Her family, the police, counselors - all asked her to leave, and she did not want to, as she felt that she had to help him and not hurt him by leaving. She'd tried to leave a few times and always came back at his pleading.

As we were connected through a meditation group that met regularly, we were very spontaneous in our conversation with each other; and I was the only friend whom she told about her plight, one day when she was late for a child's party. The spontaneous words that left my mouth [surprising me] were - “Then why don't you leave him?”
She looked at me strangely, surprised that I would say this, as I was better known to be one who would encourage people to work things out. She felt that his anger was her fault for provoking him. That is the time I blessed the relationship between me and my husband, for I was able to draw from it and explain to her - “i have provoked my husband so many times [and he me !] but he will never lift a finger to touch me when he is angry.” I think she needed to hear this from a friend.  It brought the disconnect she needed to hear.

She still didn't leave him till one day he threw her out with the kids, and she made a wonderful life for herself, over time.

From her, I learned how instantaneously, light helps to diffuse a situation. I was able to provide her tools with which to forestal abusive situations…but more importantly, to see the marriage for what it really was.
It's difficult to heal someone who is hurting you; and out of all the reasons for divorce, this is one that I completely endorse.

The other friend was not in the same situation; even her family was terrified of the husband; it's a small country, and they felt that they wouldn't be able to be safe even if she left him. We visited their house once when she hadn't come to the playschool for a few days, and we worried about her. That time, despite lightwork, I became ill, the car got spoiled, as we came away from that house of intense negative energy.

From this, I learned how to be in healing state and not empathic state in order to help a situation. How to stay detached from outcomes, one of the most difficult lessons to learn for a caring human being; and how important it is to be in healing if one is caring, so that we help and not hinder for the highest good of all concerned.
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even as a healer handling my friends' calls [“What should I do–he's outside angry”] I found myself wondering why I was facing this intense situation.

That showed me that in light healing, the healer is definitely in the situation as the receiver and all around, are. The husband did not know that we are sending light to him and all around them. Yet his anger would diffuse instantaneously. The wife knew, and was able to channel it with a reminder from me, so that she did not get too scarred. I learned to trust the process - give light and then let go. Reiki energy is intelligent, and will allow the most healing outcome to manifest itself. 

I also realized that keeping our energy clear so that no negative energies attach to it, is magical. Expanding our energies helps us to channel light from the highest source - without coloring it with our own stuff. Grounding our energies helps us to handle all those heady energies we're channeling! And from a distant perspective, rather than the drama of the immediate physical-emotional environment, we feel joy in seeing the millions of light beings beaming healing into a situation. Even before we started.

So that's why I was in the situation - it was the next step in my becoming a healer.

Even before the call for healing goes out in words, light has begun to beam out. You may be the answer to someone's prayer - yet not the first to hear it.
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[Crossposted from The Power of Light group where you will find many gifts to help with  Grounding,Centering, Connecting and ENERGY CLEARING- cords and hooks]

With a gentle bell-like sound, countless seeds of light pour down from a Source that needs no naming. Human beings are standing to receive with arms spread out. The glowing, vibrating pulses of light rain down on the oceans, rivers and waters on earth. With giant crystal-like energy, the waters tranmit them as powerful shafts of invisible light into the waters on all beings on earth. Flora, fauna, minerals..all are suffused with this light.

Water calling to water. Transmitting cosmic energy in a form that can be absorbed by all beings.

I got a sense of water's crystalline nature.


Reading this, I am moved to extend the words:

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If you can find an artwork for this, please let me know here or in Water -vision, sound, poetry at  The Power of Light group.[related post about 8:8]

Naniji is no longer alive, but she is immortal to me. She was my great-grandmother, who brought up my mother when my grandmother [her daughter and my mother's mother] died aged 18, leaving behind my weeks-old mother.

In my life, I have never met anyone as wise as Naniji, and am blessed to have known her till she passed away when I was in college.

Naniji was old when she got married [all of TWELVE years old - I shudder at that]; married a gentle, wonderful boy who grew so tall that she came to his waist! Was illiterate when married and taught herself to read and write Hindi and English by the time she died in her 80s. Took full advantage of her husband's medical studies to read up on nutrition and health. Would hand-stitch a frock for my doll with as much loving care even in her 80s, as she took in making a lahenga for her grand-daughter.

We fought over whose turn it was to host her, as everyone wanted her to stay with them - grown ups and children alike.

So  I think:  what didI learned from Naniji, a diminutive barely 5-feet tall lady, always dressed in a simple widow-white saree, and whose wordly possessions were all in a little atache case, who never preached but has taught me more than any books or  teacher?

~Eat for health and not just for taste
~When you cook a meal, make sure each dish looks and tastes different
~The food should have a fragrance that makes your mouth water, so that it's easier to digest
~When the world changes, change with it [this is her single most unique teaching in a land that values tradition above all else]
~When the fashion is for tight t-shirts, shed your loose shirts!
~Don't over-protect your children. When times change, help them to become self-reliant.

How I miss Naniji. And  yet, feel her always with me. When we were growing, it was a delight to measure ourselves against her diminutive body--Naniji, now we reach your waist..your shoulders...your ears..your head. Naniji, you are so cute as we grew taller.

And I think now--Naniji, how limitless is your height. We can never reach it. I feel embraced by your loving wisdom.

Responding to Tony [starpeople ]'s post in the  God Pod ...

Tony : “Is there a God is the big one.”

Suddenly the thought came to me - what if the answer is really as simple as- do I use the word God in my conversation; does it come in my thoughts; do a set of concepts, images, words, ideas, thoughts, sounds, feelings, knowings,  revolve around the word?  Do they change and flow and move and yet remain changeless? Are there 'things' in my life that I can't describe any other way? Is there something I can see beyond? What is my name for the highest/biggest/ultimate/furthest/nearest/most basic/deepest aspect of the universe?

And I realized that for me, the answer is - yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, and ….God. [and maybe in there somewhere, another yes]

All paradoxes end here! And begin at this point.
It's where the Big Bang starts and the contraction ends; it's the potentiality and the manifestation.

It's just a word. It's the word.

Within it is a O, a circle,
G an expanding spiral?
D a contraction?

Floating in a timeless zone.

I've just walked with one of quiet laughter through a secret garden.

This morning, I am in joyful awareness of oneness
I am in joyful awareness of the layers and dimensions of oneness as I live a human life on earth, surrounded by sentient and insentient beings on earth that's surrounded by the solar system and the universe
..of the homeostasis that continues to attract and handle imbalance in physical bodies
...of the cyclical wars and struggles between white blood cells, viruses, germs, humans and animals, countries, groups, families,  neighbors, responding to threats perceived and real
...of the growth of connections through friendship, disease, wars, adventure and love
...of the healing power of the universe that attracts calls for healing, and light, and journeying, and harmony and peace as it draws all together in wholeness
....of the big bang of the universe that is echoed in variegating emotions, unfurling ferns, blossoming flowers in gardens and  sentient beings
..of the contractions and decays and return to source of every fractal of the universe
...of laughter, wailing, shouting in rage and ecstasy, calling out, singing, speaking, whispering that all comes together in the divine symphony of the universal hum
..of the sounds of birds, animals, a ticking clock, a computer program, a car passing by
...of writing a blog and distractions that weave into it and my husband doing pranayama and the morning cool
..of the fragrance in incense, the stench in rotting garbage, the uncertain smell of unfamiliar cooking, the heady scent of perfume
...of the memory of Whiskers who played with my feet as I walked around the garden this morning, the touch of keyboard, air, fabric, a daughter's hug, a son's embrace, a husband's kiss
...of the banyan goddess whom I invoked to bring healing to the tree that is getting covered in fungus that will need to find another home than the surrounding fruit trees in my garden
...of the things I remember and forget to do
..of the teachings of masters and those who didn't know they were teaching
...of the laughter of all those who walked the earth in joyful awareness
..of shooting stars and setting moon, rising sun and shirring disks
...of much else that is unwritten, and much else that is indescribable

Today, of what are you in joyful awareness?

[Thanks to  Zephyr  and sherab  who helped me to fine-tune this offering, at the Poets Workshop. ]

While looking for visual images for this inner journeying, I came across these images. While not describing exactly what I saw, they reveal the different ways in which similar visions come to different people over time. They illustrate the joy of connecting when we celebrate our different facets without allowing them to imprison.

I love the name of this room, Time around the Tree, because my tale is related to a tree! There are many banyan trees in Miami; which is at one level a wonder because they are magical , and at another a great pity, because they've been planted in backyards or by the side of the road, have no space to grow, and are constantly being trimmed or cut back to prevent going into drains, or powerlines or whatever.

Luckily, the banyan in our yard did not need to be cut for space; but over the past year, got a fungus growth that it was passing on to other plants around it. It wasn't responding to whatever the sprayers would spray [note to self- ask the ecology whiz's on Gaia about looking after the tree]; and our tree doc was suggesting a massive cutback. 

That was enough to make me get into a spin; till I realized one day that I could send her some Reiki. Standing by her, I connected to the tree's spirit with Reiki, and asked her to awaken, and enable the fungal growth to go its way to a place where it would not harm the tree or other plants [or the neighbor's roof]. I stayed there till we got all floaty and felt a feedback.

The tree guy was pleasantly surprised at the healthy new leaves, and just trimmed it a bit. There was a dead limb to remove, but it's all right again.

Blessed be the healing spirit in us all. Like the hope that finally escaped Pandora's box, it is the promise of love planted in each heart.

HTB-GiantBanyanTree-RandyGardner

Image is not of the tree I speak of; but from the web.

[cross-posted from Reiki Tree group on Gaia]

Just before I wake, in the dawn between dream and awaking, as I'm about to open my eyes I ask myself
What time is it?
Then I internally focus on the clock near my bed; and hear " 6...no 6:13." When I'm very sure, I open my eyes - look at the clock, and verify that it is so.

I connect to my great-grandmother, Naniji, who taught me that our bodies know the time, as we have an internal body clock.There are two aspects to this that are important for me.

Listening to Drunvalo Melchizedek's video - around 8:39 minutes - "How do we understand how to be during the pole shift and directly afterward?" I thought - Thank you Naniji, for giving us this invaluable tool.

And listening to him talk about how the ancestors need us as we need them, I think of our groups on Gaia where we explore ancient learning - not for theology, but for exactly this - gaining the tools for life today. Living Metaphysics, Santmat, One Light Many Windows, The Power of Light..so many others.

See towards the end of video 4 and beginning of video 5 where Drunvalo speaks of ancestors needing us as we need them.

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Adding in on August 26th

I woke this morning to another connection that I realized I have to place in this blog.
Yesterday morning, I replied to a thread in the One Light Many Windows  group, by relating a mystical experience that was triggered by a tape of Drunvalo Melchizedek:

"There was a very small bridge in Singapore - more like a hump on the road; on which I had two interesting experiences. One, was the day after I had seen a documentary of Drunvalo Melchizedek touching upon different subjects that he was going to share at a workshop. Even though the video was badly taped and I didn't 'enjoy' it; I was absolutely blown by finding someone else who was interested in all those 'weird', out of the way things that had always attracted me- and had so much knowledge about them. I felt as if all the fragments of my life came together, reconnected.
While driving on the bridge the next day, I had an infinite moment of the most indescribable …. In one moment, it was as if the entire lifetime was laid out in front of me. Then it emerged into words… unconditional joy, love, ecstasy, thought. “Nothing can ever trouble me now” I felt, “not now that I have felt this.”
And immediately came the feeling -“Now that you've seen the top of the mountain, the climb up will not seem so daunting. But you will have to take that journey.”"
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Later in the day, I encoutnered a post on the Maya of Eternal Time by DominiqueK  in the Now I Can See the Moon room, and felt drawn to blogging.

I wanted to link my blog to a Q&R- saw that it's now called Question of the Day- and found this question for today! This is leading to other connections [post on Gaia Networking!] and a little joy. The spiritual life is nothing if not filled with these little delightful encounters!

I sat through all the 14 videos in the series [140 minutes] and took notes of things that struck me.

Once again, Drunvalo has touched upon MANY of the things I have been following. Specially when he talks about the significance of October 24 2007- I looked at my palm pilot and saw that I had recorded "COMET HOLMES APPEARS." It was of great significance to me because when it exploded into brightness, it seemed to look like a healing sanctuary that I have been visiting in non-local space, with some other healers, who also I know only virtually. In video 6 [around the 2:22 minute ] Drunvalo gives the significance of the date.

I feel that many more connections will come up and I will record them here.

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Original Blog title- What do you like most about mornings? Connecting

Whiskers sleeping on the mat in the patio, so innocent, all curled up, so trusting of the world.
And here I was watching TV as I relaxed a bit.

I wanted to take  a picture, but the 'click!' would have disturbed him.
Then he moved, and curled another way, and after a while, sat up but his eyes were still tightly shut.
As mine should be, now!
Cat by Chris White

That Mother Nature constantly gives me messages, through my animal brothers, movements of breeze, rain or sun or moonlight from the sky..

Today's message from animals I received while doing an exercise at the Love of  Animals group:

My animals messengers today:leopard, peacock, duck, cat
Message from the process [see link below]
"Movement in shadow worlds rising out of ashes is a spirit helper of mystics and seers for seeing the unseen"

In the 50+stars and Starseed Sanctuary groups, I've been wondering at the messages that I've been drawn to replying to: old issues coming up, regrets, facing negativity. This message helps me to understand, as does talking to sisters and brothers of spirit.

Then the breeze picks up, there's a shower of rain, the heart lifts, and I know that nature has spoken once again.
What's not to love?


Related messages:
Finding messages from animals at Love of Animals
Here we go again! at 50+stars
reply to the conversation "Shedding negativity and ill thinking" in Starseed Sanctuary
posted a comment on Albert 's blog entry Freedom in the Face of Fear