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gone too soon
November 2009 
Michael Jackson ~ Gone Too Soon
Posted on Jun 27th, 2009
by 
Meenakshi
Meenakshi
When I was driving back from work on Thursday, I heard on the radio that Michael Jackson was in a coma. I could feel healing light flowing towards him. On another channel, I heard one of his songs, followed by another and another.
I rediscovered Michael Jackson on the day that he died. His music, that I had so enjoyed in childhood, laid dormant in my life as I switched first to songs for babies and then children as they grew. By the time they had grown, I had begun to hear other music.
When I reached home, my son came out of the house and said, with an undefinable look in his eyes :"Michael Jackson and Farah Fawcett have died."
Sad. Deep sadness.
For one day, several thoughts and feelings raced as I heard his songs and saw many of his song videos for the first time, playing on BET. The irony did not escape me, that his videos came to my life as he departed his.
I felt I needed to write something, but there were too many mixed thoughts whirling around to get a clear idea of what words could emerge. I've learned through healing, not to get swept away by the feelings passing through as many are picked up empathically from those around us. The more we expand, the more the thoughts that we pick up, and if we can stay away from ego separateness, we know that not all thoughts are "my thoughts". But this is an alive process, as I kept getting swayed and coming back to center.
As usual, clarity came as I drove, this time to my exercise class. You have to write about Michael as you experienced him. Not as you heard about him, but as you yourself experienced him.
So, getting grounded, I thought:
"What was Michael to me? How did I experience one who was alive but I saw and heard only on waves of air? Who I heard of, from those who've personally met him and whose assessment I trust? About whom I heard much that upset me, but which was not something I knew of personally? When there's this and that, isn't it best for me to stay in the center, sending light to accusing and accused but not playing into a drama that I can do nothing about?"
And it dawned on me:
For me, Michael is as alive now, as he was when he walked on earth.
For me, Michael is more accessible now as I am more aware of him than when he was alive. I don't think I would have actually seen him as I am doing now: laughing, singing, playing to the audience, doing strange things, showing his vulnerability and pain, being spontaneous and then realizing when he's going too far, singing, leaping, dancing, swirling, moving in unimaginable ways.
And I am really sad that he has passed away, because it seemed that he was sad, he was on the verge of a concert tour in which I could perhaps have seen him, that he was trying to provide for his children and doubtless many others who depended on him, and it was not possible.
Perhaps his life was an unfinished symphony and he is Gone Too Soon [video]
Or perhaps he gave all his messages, this Michael whom we're remembering in The Power of Light group and doubtless many venues around the world, we can rise with him and see the symphony that he so passionately brought to us, and marshall the energy of our tears, deep feelings, confusion, mixed emotions, and inner knowing into a symphony of hope, to heal the world in which we are still living.
Perhaps he died so we could see him as the truth of what he was. If we can see it, he lives as he always did, but no longer hiding the light under a bushel.
I look around me, and see the pillars of light that surround me, as I had seen in the equinox ceremony in March.
And as the tears flowed today, I dedicated them to healing the world as Michael and others sought to do:
In that moment that dawns when it is time.
Let the moment not be gone too soon.
I rediscovered Michael Jackson on the day that he died. His music, that I had so enjoyed in childhood, laid dormant in my life as I switched first to songs for babies and then children as they grew. By the time they had grown, I had begun to hear other music.
When I reached home, my son came out of the house and said, with an undefinable look in his eyes :"Michael Jackson and Farah Fawcett have died."
Sad. Deep sadness.
For one day, several thoughts and feelings raced as I heard his songs and saw many of his song videos for the first time, playing on BET. The irony did not escape me, that his videos came to my life as he departed his.
I felt I needed to write something, but there were too many mixed thoughts whirling around to get a clear idea of what words could emerge. I've learned through healing, not to get swept away by the feelings passing through as many are picked up empathically from those around us. The more we expand, the more the thoughts that we pick up, and if we can stay away from ego separateness, we know that not all thoughts are "my thoughts". But this is an alive process, as I kept getting swayed and coming back to center.
As usual, clarity came as I drove, this time to my exercise class. You have to write about Michael as you experienced him. Not as you heard about him, but as you yourself experienced him.
So, getting grounded, I thought:
"What was Michael to me? How did I experience one who was alive but I saw and heard only on waves of air? Who I heard of, from those who've personally met him and whose assessment I trust? About whom I heard much that upset me, but which was not something I knew of personally? When there's this and that, isn't it best for me to stay in the center, sending light to accusing and accused but not playing into a drama that I can do nothing about?"
And it dawned on me:
For me, Michael is as alive now, as he was when he walked on earth.
For me, Michael is more accessible now as I am more aware of him than when he was alive. I don't think I would have actually seen him as I am doing now: laughing, singing, playing to the audience, doing strange things, showing his vulnerability and pain, being spontaneous and then realizing when he's going too far, singing, leaping, dancing, swirling, moving in unimaginable ways.
And I am really sad that he has passed away, because it seemed that he was sad, he was on the verge of a concert tour in which I could perhaps have seen him, that he was trying to provide for his children and doubtless many others who depended on him, and it was not possible.
Perhaps his life was an unfinished symphony and he is Gone Too Soon [video]
Or perhaps he gave all his messages, this Michael whom we're remembering in The Power of Light group and doubtless many venues around the world, we can rise with him and see the symphony that he so passionately brought to us, and marshall the energy of our tears, deep feelings, confusion, mixed emotions, and inner knowing into a symphony of hope, to heal the world in which we are still living.
Perhaps he died so we could see him as the truth of what he was. If we can see it, he lives as he always did, but no longer hiding the light under a bushel.
I look around me, and see the pillars of light that surround me, as I had seen in the equinox ceremony in March.
And as the tears flowed today, I dedicated them to healing the world as Michael and others sought to do:
May the waters flowing as tears begin to heal the world as his songs sought to do, with gentleness and controlled passion.
May eyes cleared by tears begin to see those who stood by him, who supported and loved him, and who are now caring for his children
May the suppressed anger, grief, guilt that arises around his life, be turned to daily acts of loving kindness
May eyes cleared by tears begin to see those who stood by him, who supported and loved him, and who are now caring for his children
May the suppressed anger, grief, guilt that arises around his life, be turned to daily acts of loving kindness
In that moment that dawns when it is time.
Let the moment not be gone too soon.
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Beautifully put Meenakshi, maybe he can be happy now, at last? His next album Ressurection?
Yes, I certainly hope that he is happy now. And when we can all move to a lighter way, that's resurrection enough! Is this covered in Paris?
Dear Meenakshi,
What synchronicity, I have also been trying to separate out from others thoughts and feelings and see what the reality of Michael is for me. I came to the same conclusion.
For me, Michael is as alive now, as he was when he walked on earth.
For me, Michael is more accessible now as I am more aware of him than when he was alive.
I also feel that all his energy, which was extraordinary, has finally been released, where before it was pent up and so powerful but somehow blocked except when he performed. Now this energy has flowed out across the world and its a good energy. He said he only felt truly happy when on the stage. That would have been when the energy was flowing. This outflowing of energy is palpable.
I feel for his children and hope they live happy lives. I hope that all is done that can be done for their wellbeing. I hope they are touched by goodness in all that occurs from now on. I send these thoughts out as a prayer and hope that others will pick up on it and add to this positive energy.
Beautifully put, Jenny. I've realized that when someone famous dies, it's not so much them that we miss and mourn, but an aspect of them that was connected to them. We're connected to everyone who's in our awareness, and to some extent what happens to them happens to us.
I'm feeling for the farmers in India who're suffering unprecedented drought.
And as the tears flowed today, I dedicated them to healing the world as Michael and others sought to do
Thank you for this beautiful blog, Meenakshi. It just grabbed me, especially because you wrote from personal experience. Yes, let's cry some rain onto the farmers in India.
Thank you Meenakshi, for putting the words I couldn't find for myself in such a blessed place… your blog, Gaia, the Universe.
Nell, thank you so much for being with me in my feelings. Writing on Gaia has helped me to express some that I wouldn'tcouldn't in “real life”! If it drew in my dear friends, then I'm feeling blessed dearest Amber.
You are most welcome, Meenakshi. Thank you for creating the space to express what you could not anywhere else, and for letting me be with you in this way. It is an honor and a privilege.
I embrace the tenderness of your blog and your feelings toward Michael and with that same tenderness embrace him as well. What a lovely tribute. Greatness is often misunderstood. I only have blessings for Michael just as he blessed us with much of himself and the great works that he left us. He lives in my heart now in the chamber of peace. Thank you for this expression of your admiration and love. I can almost see a new smile on his face.
Thank you dear John, for sharing your warmth here. You really have such a BIG heart.
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Interestingly, in the July 2009 month that the world mourns the loss of Michael Jackson from cardiac arrest on June 25, 2009, there will be a Full Moon and a penumbral lunar eclipse on the day of Michael Jackson's Memorial Service.
If you love astronomy, astrology, philosophy, or just plain weird things, you have to be fascinated by the fact that Michael Jackson was such a rare addition to the human race and that a lunar eclipse and a total solar eclipse happening two weeks apart during our mourning of Jackson is off the charts. A penumbral lunar eclipse is totally invisible to the human eye, yet some fraction of the Sun's rays still reach the most deeply eclipsed parts of the Moon. During Michael Jackson's Memorial Service, like the penumbral lunar eclipse, there will be many sides of Michael Jackson's life that are invisible to the human eye, yet his Sun's rays will reach the world's deeply eclipsed crevices as they did in his life.
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Wonderful blog, Meenakshi.
I'm happy you've rediscovered his music. The Music will live on, Michael is Immortal through this, this was his desire.
I've also said the same thing to a few people, from my Own Feelings, the day after he transitioned…that This Beautiful Man held SOOOOOO much energy. When he physically left us, all of that energy dissipated into each of us. I felt him Very Strongly. (the same has been said in Karen Bishop's Energy Alert…but Karen and I usually say the same things LOL)
He was GLOBAL, Meenakshi…who else could make Grown Men and Women faint? :-D Amazing Human Being. I will very much miss him on Earth. His Gift of Music and Dance will live on forever.
He IS in a much better place and space to put that Onederful Heart to use for the betterment of All of Us. And he WILL do this =)
I don't like the way they're trying to 'tone down' his memorial services…it would be bigger than the Pope's. He was Loved, especially now, people are realizing he was much more than tabloid gossip, realizing how very much his music was a sountrack to their lives…the people must have a place to grieve, to show their love, respect and honour….especially in death, if they couldn't do so in Life.
I will be watching the service, sending him my Love, embracing everyone in Light.
Love~~<3
That is the way to handle this energy. I keep thinking - who else is around us that we are ignoring or attacking or judging when we could be celebrating them? Ah “death- where is thy sting? “ In Michael's case it really did remove all the shadows.
[For some time, Karen Bishop's energy alerts weren't doing it for me but I”ll check them again now]
I loved this blog,
When I first heard of micahel's death, I just simplyfilled by a feeling of disbelief. Then when i checked it out, it slowly started to sink in. The entire memorial tribute was soooo emotional. I simply felt that the entire world had lost someone who was trully unique.
R.I.P Mikey
I feel with you, agnitra. I do wish they wouldn't keep having all that speculative “news” on TV though. They don't let a person rest in peace.