For the longest time, the message that kept going like a tickertape on the television screen of my mind, was : “Not my will, but thine, be done.” Thine then, was the God I saw in each person. Not an easy path, for a child and young person to subjugate their own will to that of others. It was a trial by fire, but one I was aware within me, that I had accepted to do.

I also tried to follow the Buddha's words of desire leading to suffering…and therefore not to give importance to my desires or emotions.

And one day, the message changed :”Follow your dream”. That was a jolt, as I had no idea what my dream was.

At the same time, my life became such that it was difficult to plan for more than a week at a time. I realized that I was being shown the importance of living in the moment [ so later Tolle's Now movement resonated so strongly!] and as I began to live each moment, I realized that moment to moment, little desire thoughts go out, and moment to moment they are satisfied!

And perhaps it is not desire that precedes manifesting; but manifesting events that place little seeds of desire within us, illuminating the lights on our path.

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If we can detach from thought but stay aware, the rewards ar tremendous!

I realized it was time to begin connecting with the messages of my emotions, on the learning of those around me when I express them, and of allowing  the vibrations to be raised of myself and those around me. This caused many struggles to re-balance relationships in a healing way.

And that I had accepted my earthly trials not by the will of thine- who- is separate- from- me, but by thine- who- is- the- expanded -self whence we all are.

I had transcendent experiences, both in a meditation setting and when I was just doing daily chores…and realized we are always connected, always in meditation..

And in the flow.

[cross-posted with The Power of Light pod]

Just takes my breath away

I don't remember the joy of running as a child; though I do remember running. When I run now, egged on by our personal trainer; I feel like the little girl who was locked inside me, is suddenly free. And really joyful for the first time, even though her 52 year old body is heavier and takes more effort to run than her effortless running! When I started personal training, the trainer asked me: “How often do you run?” “Run?” I asked, completely flabbergasted. Which shocked him. I can almost see his hidden laughter now, at the alacrity with which I run at every opportunity. And the delighted laughter of my friend, who trains with me; at my sudden competitiveness in trying to [and sometimes succeeding] win at a race with her! There's something about running that makes me feel free. It embodies the freedom of my soul as I let loose some more hooks that bound it…. Thanks to Halina's blog that reminded me that the one we live in the longest, is ourselves….   [cross-posted with 50*-stars ]

My mother remarked this time when I visited her in India. "I haven't seen a chidiya  for so long!"



House sparrows used to be so ubiquitous, they are called by the generic name, "chidiya" [bird].

I remember sparrows diligently making their nests in our high ceiling rafters or the mounts of the fan --the little upturned cup where the fan meets the ceiling. They'd come in and out of the windows, dropping little bits of grass wherever they went, and going chirrp chirrp.

So it is with a start that I realize it's not just that the sparrows have stayed in small towns and villages; they may actually be disappearing!

More here:
I'm not going to tell Ma. She'll refuse to use her mobile phone that we've just begun to get her to use. Or shall I?

A news item I read today:
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Electronic Smog 'Is Disrupting Nature On A Massive Scale'

 New study blames mobile phone masts and power lines for collapse of bee colonies and decline in sparrows

Healing is light flowing to light through light, and sweeping us away from the land of ego.
It is a river of love flowing just above and within this magical world of illusion.


I have learned that healing is experience of connection.

On the path of healing I first re-connect what has been fragmented within me.

We seek to connect to another who is a "healer" or a "receiver", and realize that it is the connection that is healing to both
So we keep connecting to each situation and person in a healing way, to connect not to show  or receive power but to vibrate together
And in this way, the vibration of the whole is raised to whatever has been the ideal: Oneness, Unity, Enlightenment, Liberation.

This is for tomorrow; Sept. 21st; which is the final day of the peace intention experiment. If you have not subscribed; please read the information below. The website will show that today's session is completed; but if you join in tomorrow at the right time, as detailed below; it will show the same information as given in this email that Lynn McTaggart sent to subscribers. Please pass the word. Thank you. Our beloved Sanmugan on Gaia, is also from Sri Lanka and that gives us an additional reason to be involved. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``

Every Sri Lankan needs YOU this weekend:
Take a minute to stop the violence

Navy vessels have destroyed 10 boats and killed 25 members of the LTTE's Sea Tigers unit in a three-hour battle off the northwestern coast. Furthermore, 48 rebels were killed in army offensives within 12 miles of the rebel headquarters and the air force targeted the hideout of senior LTTE leaders.

On their side, the Tamil Tiger rebels repulsed an army advance in the northern Wanni region after fighting that lasted four hours, claiming the lives of 25 soldiers.

The government refused to negotiate or offer a cease-fire until the LTTE lays down its arms and is committed to finally repel the LTTE in its last stronghold. Aid agencies have left Wanni because their safety isn't guaranteed. The bombing raids have forced more than 113,000 from their homes.

The UN is calling on both sides to stop killing civilians.

Take 10 minutes to stop the violence

So this is our final weekend for our Peace Intention Experiment. Sri Lanka needs the support of a critical mass of people. Every last intention will count. Please make a point of joining us Saturday and Sunday. At the end of the intention on Sunday, light a candle in your window for the No to Violence campaign.

The internet Peace Intention Experiment portal system has been working well this week. But if yours doesn't, see below for alternative instructions.

Join the experiment at the following times:

• 9 am Pacific Daylight Savings Time
• 10 am Mountain DST
• 11 am Central DST
• 12 noon EDST
• 5 pm British Summer Time
• 6 pm European Summer Time

10 minutes before the start of the experiment:

2.  The page should flip automatically as indicated.  If it doesn't, wait for another minute then refresh the page (you can usually do this by pressing F5 on your keyboard).

3.  If it still doesn't work, don't worry.  Just focus on sending the following intention:

"My intention is for peace and cooperation to be restored in the Wanni region of Sri Lanka and for all war-related deaths and violence to be reduced by at least 10 per cent".

Warm wishes,

p.s. It's not too late to get your friends and family to join us. Tell them to sign up at www.thepeaceintentionexperiment.com today.

Thanks to Andrew's questions on the Global Peace pod, thoughts on peace towards the end of the United Nations declared International Day of Peace.

A: I think somewhere along the line world peace has to start in the hearts of the men and woman that are leading the nations.

I think world peace has to percolate up in the hearts of the men and woman that are put up or put up with, by the people of nations. Rather than top-down, the traditional structure; it has to be is a coming in from groups on the periphery, who are able to find peace in their hearts, their daily action, their thought, emotions, in different aspects of their life,  to the center.

A: Should we concentrate our energies on them? How?

Yes, I think we should periodically focus our energies through intent, action [like Sandy's activism], discussion or any other way, to strongly and clearly give the message to the leaders that we want peace. I would say if we can convince our neighbors and family members and co-workers, then we can convince them as well…


A: What is the goal?
The goal is to show that we are more effective, wealthy, happy, healthy, powerful when there is peace than when there is not.


A:Unless it’s ‘permanent and sustainable’ are we just massaging our ego’s thinking we are doing something when in reality we are just having ‘love fests’?

It won't start as being permanent or sustainable; it will first be in fits and starts, a moment here and a month there; with some people at first and then with others; and as we see the results, it can spread into our own life. If we can actually have a love fest, it would be great. On Gaia, we have had pockets of time and posts of real conflict; they have been handled in different ways. If we, people from completely diverse backgrounds and situations, can somehow show that we can discuss, argue, disagree, and so on peacefully; that can spread into other areas of our life.

That is one of the main feelings I have about our time on Gaia. That we are learning how to communicate, and stay engaged in a peaceful way.

Because if we don't have peace, how can we “give” it?
If we don't feel peace, we can't intend it.

Peace does not come because of something outside us; it comes because of a great struggle within our own beliefs and perceptions; when we see how we can find internal peace inspite of, not because of conditions outside us.

That is what my experience has shown me; within me, my family, co-workers. And sharing and talking about it, and other actions could spread it outward.

There have been world leaders who sought peace, there still are. There have been sages and teachers and spiritual leaders who showed us peace.

Now it's time for the hearts of each of us to radiate the peace outward. The spiritual leadership has to come from within: not from without; and certainly not from the isolated "top".

[Crossposted with the Global Peace Pod post]

A long time ago, in a time when my mind was fuzzier, peace seemed a distant dream and healing was something doctors didn't; there was a girl who lived in India, once called the Jewel in the [British] crown.

As she was born a decade after independence, she heard a lot about how the British had been in India; she saw Indians who others call brown sahibs or later, coconuts [brown outside, white inside] because they'd say things like :" India was better off during British rule", and want to emulate a British accent and think that the only place on earth worth living in, was England.

She also met Indians who had been freedom fighters; who burned their woollens from English mills and followed Gandhiji.

She was educated in convent schools, which were prized for their focus on teaching English [no, they did not try to convert her to Christianity]; even though her great-grandfather was saddened that she was sent to schools that believed in punishing children by hitting them.

And in this chaotic mixture so soon after independence, she developed a massive chip on her shoulder. Perhaps not massive; but quite strong.
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This episode took place when she was in her 20s and is old enough to speak for herself:
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I must say we benefited from being taught english in convent school; as it makes it easier to travel the world. Of course, I still meet people who can't believe that an Indian who lived in India for a little over 30 years, can actually speak English!

I had such a chip on my shoulder, though, when I first visited England almost 30 years ago; sure that everyone would be racist and rude; all set to tell the immigration “when” they denied me an entry permit for flimsy reasons that I didn't really want to visit their country and wouldn't have if I wasn't visiting relatives.

So I was completely unprepared for the polite civility of the immigration guys who asked a few questions before stamping me in for 6 months multiple entry [I'd asked for one week!]; the “Hello luv” of  a cheeky passerby or the real friendliness of strangers at a neighborhood cafe.

Stiff upper lip? Perhaps when you're upset; but otherwise the lasting impression I have of London is of crossing crowded Oxford Street, shocked at how those huge buses made no move to impatiently inch forward; and even the cars behind  us stayed in place till we'd safely crossed over!

Oh! I HAVE to tell you what dislodged that chip on my shoulder.

I was walking on one of the side roads with a cousin when all of a sudden a huge truck came behind us, and began to climb the pavement [sidewalk, dear  Americans!].

“Sanjeev!” I shrieked. “he's trying to kill us. How can he be so mean?”

My cousin, born and raised in England, laughed at his paranoid cousin. The guy was parking the only way he could in that narrow alley!!!!

 

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[cross-posted with edits with 50stars pod and World heritage Society]

In the past week; our thoughts have been on peace. There was the UN International Day of Peace on Sept. 21st; the peace Intention experiment from Sept 14th-21st for Sri Lanka and many discussions on Gaia.


I joined in all these activities;  and within me, I'm going:


I know others were feeling the same way.

Some have told me they find me peaceful or healing or spreading peace. Some have even felt that causes selfishness [OK, I'm home free, so now I don't have to do anything] or apathy. I know it is the manifestation of fear  within us that causes a person who is seeking peace to also mistrust it.

I experience peace as

The experience of peace is of an aware, active, supremely blissful state of oneness.